October 2, 2017 Week 9- On the Mend

Week 8 was a whirlwind with Ashleigh and Terry here and our trip to Newport Beach. I didn't feel very well when Ashy first arrived and I felt really badly about that. But I was so very happy to see her, I hadn't since July. On Saturday we got to visit and then she, Terry and Brian went to Scare Night at Carowinds Amusement Park for the evening. The next day Mark and I spent the better part of the day on planes and in airports on our way to Newport Beach. Our bungalow at Pelican Hill Resort was amazing. We explored the area and went on a whale and dolphin watch. No whales but dozens of dolphins and they were beautiful to see. The beaches are not very easy to get to at all and we didn't find any that had many shells. Thus I've decided the Atlantic Ocean is my favorite. You walk right onto the beach and shells are all over. My new medicines were great as they allowed me the energy to explore and the ability to eat some really great food too. One of the new anti-nausea meds also allowed me to sleep through the night, and I've been so thankful for that. We got home around midnight on Thursday so we had all day Friday to spend with the kids. We took them to a driving range and a home decor store before a great dinner at Texas Roadhouse. I felt pretty good. I hated having to say goodbye though the next day when Ashy headed home. The visit wasn't nearly long enough and I am anxiously awaiting the next, hopefully Thanksgiving. My next appointment with my oncologist and to do re-staging of the tumor and scans isn't until the end of October. More waiting. They say they have to because my treatments continue to do battle for several weeks after I stop receiving them, but it's still really hard to just wait and wonder. Especially when we now live in a society where everything is about the right now. I want to know right now how am I. If I'm cured. If I'm better than I was. Or if I just wasted 2 months of precious time being sick for nothing. Because you see time waiting is time to wonder a whole lot of things. For now I'll focus on feeling stronger, hopefully growing some of my precious curly hair back and enjoying each day I am given. Oh, and continue my dream of someday owning a ranch on lots of land where I can be a sanctuary for rescue animals. I see myself doing that until I'm old and gray. That and visiting beaches and collecting shells with my precious family ❤️