My folks headed out on Saturday. It was a really nice week and I couldn't be happier about their visit. The timing was really good as I wasn't too beat down yet from starting chemo back up. Over the weekend I've been progressively more tired and I hate that. It's hard to accurately describe. My body is exhausted but also restless, and the physical feeling that leaves me with is frustrating. My skin hurts. I want to move and feel like I need to but then I nap for an hour. My throat has been much more angry with me the past few days. It's dry and I get like spasms randomly or when I eat or drink various degrees of food or drink. I've relied a lot more on the medicine which I don't really like but it is what it is. I am still so thankful that it does not hurt to swallow. I've had a very hardy appetite so my weight is hanging in there. I swear I'm eating more than I normally do but hey that's a good thing! We've started to sort through some fall decorations, and in a couple two three weeks we will get out Halloween stuff! I do love decorating as it changes the whole look and feel of the house, and there's just something about fall colors that's so comforting. I feel like I should move whenever I feel up to it because while resting is great I think too much just makes me more sore? Like in my joints. At the same time boy am I grateful that I don't "have" to be anywhere beside treatment. There are moments when I'm not sure I could walk down the hall if I needed. I also know this could all be so much worse so I'm thankful that I am managing okay. I feel lucky to get little breaks in between feeling blah. Just enough to remind me I can do this 🙂 And its pretty easy to do with all my amazing wonderful people in my corner fighting with me and pushing me forward. Today is going to be my final chemo treatment and when it's finished my picc line is coming out. After the obligatory apply pressure and dressing it is my every intention to go home and sit in the shower until I've used every ounce of hot water in the house. If all runs similar to before I'm in for about another week to 10 days of blah followed by progressively stronger. By then I'll be at the end of radiation. I can do this...
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